Time Management

Second day of volunteering in AYA, and I almost cried at the end of the day.

Partially my bad as well. I took a short nap around 10 plus last night and my mom woke me up around 2 something to watch the tense match between Germany and Spain. I got hungry and decided to cook a packet of maggi mee (curry flavor) around 4am. Around 5am (after the match), I went back to sleep to rest before waking up for another long day ahead in AYA. When I woke up around 8.15am, I wasn't feeling hungry as I was still full from what I ate earlier on so I thought, "maybe I could grab a quick bite before 12pm" as Thursday is our teens ministry's (Acts Teens) Fast & Pray day. But little did I know, time flew by like a wind, and it was 12.15pm already after VIP class. So I've committed to fast during lunch, I went on with an empty stomach throughout the rest of the afternoon, solely depending on 2 cans of cold nescafe and 2 eclipse sweet to survive.

Sorry Lord that I did not seek for strength from You. And because of that, I got myself all cranky and I can't seem to concentrate in my work. But thank God that I was still able to receive and listen to what Pastor Andy, Joel Wong and Alvin shared what they need to share when I met up with them at different times. However, things didn't end well when we had CVA meeting just now. My stomach refuses to eat any sort of food as I was feeling nauseas already at that time and I seriously felt like vomiting a few times. I wasn't able to concentrate throughout the whole CVA meet with the team that I almost broke down in front of them. Because I do not want to show that weak side of me that easily, I held in my tears and told them what I think I should do at that time. Instead of staying back for Vision Casting at 8.30pm, I decided to come home early to rest as I know myself well for I was at the edge of wanting to break down already. So, what am I doing here?

There are still a few task which I've yet to complete it, that's why I'm here. After going through all this, I really need to buck up and learn how to manage myself and time well. With so many things in hand to handle already, crying and sulking won't help at all. I can only always turn to the one and only who was always there for us whenever we need a helping hand. Lord, I sincerely surrender my all unto You. I can't do this alone. Whatever negative thoughts and feelings I have now, help me remove it as I know myself well that I will keep on thinking and hold on to those feelings and thoughts.

Physically and mentally tired. But I shall not claim all this for this is what the Satan wants. The more all this nonsense happen, the more I will do things the devils do not like to see. A good night rest is what I need now. I shall put my rest upon Him and know that everything is gonna be alright when I wake up the next day. Right, daddy God? :)

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™ ♥

Volunteer

My first day volunteering in AYA :D and I'm right now blogging from the 2nd floor of the office! Haha! I sure have the nerve to blog at this hour :p it's lunch break la now. Currently waiting for Pastor Andy with Brian Ong to go grab our lunch and have a short meeting on what we're suppose to do while volunteering/intern-ing in AYA. Yes, our ever awesome genius Brian Ong is my colleague now :p he's just 15 this year and he'll be taking A Levels like, next year? :S

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™ ♥

Juniors

Taken during Subang Rally 2010: IGNITE after the night party.

For some reason, I really thank God for awesome high school juniors like them :p though we may not have known each other for long, but it feels as though they have become a part of my life and I really don't mind having them as my pet brothers and sisters :p

There are a few missing humans in the picture though. An Jie, Reuben, and the awesome and my favorite, David Teoh! Haha! Can't wait for this Friday's CF, so that I can meet and spend time with them again. :D

Being really random now as I seriously do not know what to do at the moment. Starting work as a volunteer in AYA in a few hours time :p I is excited!

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™ ♥

Decisions

I have never made such decision in my entire life before. But guess it's the best choice for me to allow myself to move on.

From now onwards, everything related to it will be erased from my memory and whatever that has happened all this while will not be remembered, anymore.

Goodbye my friend. This will be my last goodbye to you and the next time we meet, it'll be a new hello you'll ever hear from me.

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™ ♥

Hungry

Am still figuring out on what to eat since this morning. Gahhh!

I am so fickle minded that when I want to eat, I have to think of my budget and my weight. Goodbye to all my favorite food? Fried food, cheesy pizzas, any food that is high in calorie? :(

The power of media that shows stick thin model and those models made you feel fat even tho you are not fat till the extent that people will say you're overweight or obese :(

Am into Korean shows and singers and actress and actors and models and dramas nowadays and I seriously envy their (female artiste's) body size :(

Omg omg omg omg omg omg someone please slap me for even having this kind of nonsense thoughts. On the bright side of the note (and totally off topic), I'm ♥-ing my holidays :p been sleeping like a lazy sloth/pig/panda till afternoon only I'll crawl out from the comfy bed and do random stuff randomly. Like now -.-

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™ ♥

Life And Thoughts

I just don't get how people can be so immature and not appreciate the things that were given to them? Honestly, this type of people irritates/annoy/disgust me a lot. It frustrates me that their silly/immature act/nonsensical actions are hurting the people around them and all they could think of/do is jump into conclusion and assume that all those dumb conclusions will come true. Who do you think you are now? God?

If you don't feel good about something, just voice it out like a real human. Don't be such a coward and start saying bad stuff about it when you clearly do not have the rights to even say such mean things in the first place. Get your act right, please. Stop embarrassing yourself :)

Oh, and if you dislike it when people talks about you/became topic of the town, then why did you create such havoc that allows me to mention about you in the first place? If you don't like it, think about who was the one that created all this mess in the first place.

Nuff said. :)

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™ ♥

Goodbye Brazil

Face it, people. Brazil is out of the World Cup this year. So stop having grudge or dislikes against other team like Germany or Uruguay just because they are Dutch and they are the same as Netherlands who beats Brazil flat in the recent match.

Netherlands play cheat? Well, player Felipe Melo from the Brazil team sure did not play a fair game too. That's why he deserves a RED CARD for playing rough in the game.

Come on la Brazil supporters. They have won the match too many times now. It's time to allow the other teams to have the chance to win the World Cup match before World Cup turns into Brazil Cup?

Whatever it is, Brazil supporters are supporting the Argentina team now. I would go for Germany :) just like how I supported Germany when they had a face off with England! :D

Blessings & Peace Out,

♠ Vanessa ♠™